The other day I was texting to my best friend about how scary it feels now that I've begun planning with my partner our move to the west coast. At the end of October we will fly to LA to start a new life together. On the day that we fly out we will celebrate my 30th birthday. So far, we both have no idea where we will live exactly or how we will make a living. But we're gonna do it. We're totally excited for this amazing adventure, but I admitted to my self yesterday that fear really was swelling up inside me. I have a tremendous amount of faith in myself and my wonderful partner that we will do more than fine when we get out there. I'm looking forward to finding out what's next for us. But I decided to let the fear in. Best deal with that kind of emotion early on. Otherwise the little bugger side-swipes you when you least expect it, paralyzes you from the inside and keeps you from making those steps you just have to make, all because that little gremlin we call fear wasn't invited earlier on in your journey. Fear tends to get jealous and can react with a vengeance if not paid the proper respects. I've learned this the hard way. So I let it in. I had myself a glass of wine to loosen me up. Not wanting to speak to anyone at the time, I texted my best friend Rae. When I told him how scared I was he responded by telling me the mantra that he's been repeating to himself for the past several months.
I decided to write in my notepad, photograph it and use it as my screen page.
It helped. Hope it helps you too :)
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